One of my blogstories dealt with movies that move.
Right now I'm listening to one of the dutch radio-channels and it strikes me that this is the first year, after my husbands sudden death almost 6 years ago, I can handle (almost) again listening to one of the "Passions" of Johann Sebastien Bach. And although the "Mattheuspassion" is the one that is traditionally performed in "hundreds" of churches and theatres all over our little country, I prefer the lesser known "Johannes Passion".
I cannot really say why, but maybe because it is more compact and as much moving as "the Mattheus". And as I once heard my son use the phrase :" music is the ladder to the soul" ,I couldn't agree more.
So I suppose I'm ready again to let the music come in, touch my soul, and let the emotions come and go freely.
Another composer which helps me to touch my soul, and thus my emotions, is /was Schubert.
There is a dutch lady-singer, Lenny Kuhr, who showed some courage in stepping away from the classical way of performing and sang these "Lieder" in her own specific way. The words have been translated into the dutch language and it was a real medium for me to allow myself to grieve my loss.
I consider it a good sign that I want to listen again to all these beautiful compositions. And not only to allow the tears to come, but be able to enjoy at the same time.
Some parts in you seem to die, together with the beloved one, but the love for (certain) music clearly has been "buried" temporarily. I am very happy that this love "is coming out" again, and together with it the enjoyment.
Dag,dag,
the horse-rider
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